Chesire Grin

Leave.

2008-08-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I'm me

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

Sigh.

2008-08-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

24Sept04-20Aug08

It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and apologized to no one. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch, but one. An inch. It is small and it is fragile and it is the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must NEVER let them take it from us. I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the worlds turns, and that things get better. But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you.

I was the more deceived.

2008-08-13T15:22:00.000-07:00

HAMLET

Get thee to a nunnery: why wouldst thou be a
breeder of sinners? I am myself indifferent honest;
but yet I could accuse me of such things that it
were better my mother had not borne me: I am very
proud, revengeful, ambitious, with more offences at
my beck than I have thoughts to put them in,
imagination to give them shape, or time to act them
in. What should such fellows as I do crawling
between earth and heaven? We are arrant knaves,
all; believe none of us. Go thy ways to a nunnery.
Where's your father?

Most amazing thing ever.

2008-08-04T21:51:00.001-07:00

( In the background, one of my cats is meowing)

Try: I hear your cat crying.
Me: -some random noises to entice cats nearer, fail- Brb - get up and get the carton of orange juice, returning to the desk chair to sit and shake it-
Try: so what's that noise, treats to call them?
Me: ..Orange juice.
Try: That's weird to use to call cats. :O
Me: o.o..... Oj..for ...me?

Try:

I can do anything with no permission.

2008-08-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

Tori=win?

2008-07-30T12:52:00.001-07:00

A day on the beach

2008-07-29T20:24:00.000-07:00

[ So this doesn't seem random- a friend and I were joking about roleplaying and writing and so stumbled upon an RP SL ( roleplay Storyline) with our chars.]

For a secluded piece of beach, there sure were a lot of crabs skittering around on the sand. Silver gaze narrowed thoughtfully on the nearest example, a stubborn little fellow that was determinedly trying to climb over the pair of leather boots discarded in the warm sand. A soft chuckle emerged, semi clad form reaching out one tanned arm to nudge the crab around the footwear. " What do you think Aar? New chew toy? " Question was directed towards the sprawled feline form a few yards distant...though one would hardly notice with the decided lack of response her query garnered. " Thanks for the love pal." Abandoning both the crab and the cat to their own devices, she resumed leaning against the sun warmed boulder in the partial shade, head canted forwards slightly to take full advantage of the leather hat tilted over brow. An exploratory ride had turned into a race, which had turned into a brief hunt for meat for the cats and from there, a chance to take a quick dip and wash off the grime of the day. As her thought followed the path of their activities, attention was caught by the sound of splashing farther out from shore. Though Averi's own dip had been quick , wanting to relax on the beach more then play in the water, Try had gone all out- leaving every stitch of clothing in a mound on the warm sand, "guarded" by her own snoozing feline. The cobalt haired huntress was paddling lazy circles a few feet out in the water now, pausing and standing in the shallow draft, head canted downwards towards her own cupped hands. Averi's gaze drifted first towards the other femmes hand, in curiosity , but then slowly drifted downwards, on a more interesting exploration that brought a faint hint of color to her cheeks. Glad that the hat hide most of her blush, not to mention her grin, gaze flicked sharply away to avoid being caught.

From the corner of her eye, she watched the cobalt haired female release whatever was in cupped hands back into the water and begin to trudge towards shore. Canting head even father downwards, Averi's breath expelled in a short burst as two all two familiar aches ignited in her. One was within her chest and grew with every passing moment spent with the other hunter. The other was, well, decidedly farther south of the first and demanded a different type of solution entirely.

1 2 3 4

2008-07-29T14:03:00.000-07:00

Lyrics:
One Two Three Four
Tell me that you love me more
Sleepless, long nights
That was what my youth was for

OLD teenage hopes are ALIVE at your door
Left you with nothing
But they want some more

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are

Sweetheart, bitter heart
Now I can't tell you apart
Cozy and cold
Put the horse before the cart

Those teenage hopes
Who have tears in their eyes
Too scared to own up
To one little lie

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are

One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, and ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then
One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, and ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are
Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are